Self-discovery is a concept designed
to uncover what lies behind the walls our hidden personalities, needs, and
wants. Due to years of social programming
and what are often our own self-perceptions, there is a general drifting away
from that knowledge. We’re all so stuck
with the preoccupation of fitting into society’s molds, that in the process
we have forgotten the importance of learning how to live in our own skins
or to tune in to our own inner voices. This is what these pages from my book
“Flights…”
are all about: The
true process to Self-discovery and complete Self-awareness, as illustrated through the eyes of a clairvoyant
spiritualist and near death, out-of-body survivor. From the pain of death, gripping fear, to our
obstacles and sorrows, and finally on to triumphant release…. This book describes it all.
*From pages 14-16
I don’t think anybody expects life
to be a complete bed of roses. Nor is it
even reasonable to expect such worldly perfection will ever be the case. We humans just aren’t quite that divine and
wise enough to make our planet that kind of
Like you, my attempts to reach
this quieter state of mind led me to my local bookstore for assistance. As a child I used to practically live in my
school’s library, so when that habit of reading naturally followed me into
adulthood, that’s where my instinctual feet beat a path to. I just had to find the author who could help
me make more sense of myself and my experiences! As soon as I stepped into the store, there
they all were. Rows and rows of books
just for me…. Umph…. Where to begin?
Which book we buy is completely
dependent on our mood or frame of mind.
If it’s a love story you want, you got it. If your mind is in a creative mode, you’ll
head down the artistic aisle. If you’re
in a mental or religious slump, you will strike off in still other
directions. On the other hand, if all
you want to do is to educate yourself about a particular topic, then it will be
that book which you’ll pick up. Am I
right? The internal forces of our
current mood definitely determine what we do.
And here is where I found the incongruity
of buying just one book at a time, when in reality our moods can flip-flop
several times a day. In all my years
of searching, I have yet to find a self-help, psychological, or spiritual
book that does an adequate job of answering why
these dynamic moods of ours are even so. Even
by the time I’d reached the age of 17, I knew I was one broken girl.
Due to a catastrophic childhood accident that nearly took my life and
the taste of death it enlightened my mind to, the experience left me feeling
incomplete, frightened and alienated. No one I knew could relate to the spiritual
and clairvoyant side effects which my senses had become exposed to ever since
I’d been strangely cast out of my body from this event. What I did have to show for it were the physical
scars and a handicap that wouldn’t disappear no matter hard medicine tried.
To further complicate my personal state of affairs, the issues of being
abducted, battered, raped, and the infant son I’d been forced to give up for
adoption out of this incident became crash entries before I’d even reached
my 23rd birthday. By the time I was 35 years old I had a twelve-year
marriage; a divorce decree; a miscarriage of another boy; eighteen moves;
the molestation of one of my three little daughters; and the assault of a
criminal burglary, which had evolved out of an attempt to publish a previous
book. I was exhausted!
Desperation quickly began to seep
into my soul not long after that, and so I began my bookstore hunt to find an
author who could address me from all four angles of my experiences: (a) My physical traumas. (b) My emotional pain for myself and
children. (c) The mental scars that were
consequently acquired. (d) My overall
questions and confusion that dealt with my psychic ability, nature’s forces and
my own spiritual belief system. I hadn’t
one issue to deal with. I had four.
As hard as I’ve looked throughout
the years since my childhood accident in 1971, I have never found an author
willing to put into a single book what is, in reality, the sum total of four
subjects and more, which addresses each division of our multifaceted
natures. I don’t know about you, but I
am a lot more than a walking scull filled with the gray matter of my
brains. Yes, I am a physical being that
is dependent on my cardio-vascular system in order to stay alive. But my heart
feels, too, just like everybody else’s.
And what about the soul? Isn’t it
a relative part of our being right along with the rest of us? So how, then, can a self-help book exclude
this deeper side of existence when addressing any of our other companion
parts? I’m not just one thing… I am again – all four! I solved my own problem.
This book contains all four of these aspects of us and how our life experiences affect each nature in the manner that they do. When I discovered what the relativities were between the ghosts of my past and what I’d subconsciously suppressed about each turmoil, I self-discovered why I wanted to be a *Rock. (*Reference to an earlier Question and Answer session, that asks the reader to unlock his/her own subliminal nature.)
*From pages 20-23
Heart, Body,
Mind, and Soul
There are four sides to every person that make up the
totality of our being: Our actual physical bodies, our mental/behavioral sides,
our emotional natures, and, last but not least, the core of a person hidden
somewhere in the elusive mix of our own complexities. The goal of this book is to show how these
four aspects of human nature interplay and impact one another, the effect they
can have on our intuitive soul, and what I hope to enrich a better
understanding about yourself and access more easily. The Soul is by far the most misunderstood
and underrated of all our internal natures, but is without question, the energy
and driving force behind every human being.
It is both our motor and generator in as simple a relative way as an
engine to a car. Our minds, of course,
the said drivers behind the wheel; our hearts and needs the fuel that propel
us; and the metal chassis our bodies. When
you get into your car to travel somewhere, you can’t get to where you want to
go unless all four parts of your automobile are put together right, fueled, and
functional, can you? So it goes with
people.
On the following page of this book you will find a graphic
illustration of each side of our four-natures, which correspond to what you
will find is a separate section of this book:
*The Body, The Heart, The Mind, The Soul. See Corresponding Thumbnails.
Very few people I’ve met seem to
understand how all these sides correlate and can undermine the well-being of
the other. (* What I refer to as “The
Pillars of We” in later chapters.)
Example:
Some people take drugs to escape the memories
of something that emotionally hurt
them terribly. But what happens in
the process? Answer: They very often do irreparable damage to their
bodies and alter their mental thought patterns. After a while, the years of addiction can jade
their belief system. They may feel that there is no loving, positive Higher
Force which surrounds us all. They,
in essence, lose their faith in any power that exists within their own soul to recover. Yet, this is the easiest concept to master.
The whole process is nothing more than a chain reaction that flows
both ways. Side by side, as the arrows
point back and forth (↔) between one exterior portion of our selves (↔) and the other. And
up and down (↕) between the top layers of our exterior
Public-selves (↕) and our deeper Inner-selves.
The red star (*) indicates creativity.
The midline is our Instinctual natures, which act as the buffers, portals, and catalyst between the two halves of what we allow people to see or know about us on the surface and what subliminally rules us; or what we underneath may feel and want differently. It is that side of our physical being that warehouses all of the basic drives and structures that go into the construction of us all, but also contains our greatest assets: Our reptilian brains, survival instincts, our parental/mating instincts, intuitive prompts, memories and urges, as well as our subliminal senses and higher intelligence center. Forgotten as they may be, the combination is why we are physically still around as a species. Familiarize yourself with the wording; I will refer to them often.
*Please note graph is re-illustrated four subsequent times in order to reinforce the forces/correlations and concepts behind each nature; with each set individually highlighted as it appears before the reader.
*The Divisions of Self
Our Instincts are an essential force of their own that act
as the undercurrents that move our Bodies, Hearts, and Minds. Example:
Our survival instincts are the most honed of all, of that there is no
debate. What do you think drives parents
to protect their young at all cost, even if that means diving into burning
flames to save them? From where comes
all that force of emotion, mental will, and physical sacrifice? Our instinctual
side, naturally. On a deeper level still
is the Soul, which acts as the reservoir of all that we are, do, and go through. And where not even a whisper of a breeze is
forgotten.
The reflective pool of our Spirit is by far the hardest to
tap into as it is buried so deeply within us that we sometimes forget it’s even
there. Nothing can numb us more or pose
the thicker barrier than denial, duality, self-deceit, disassociation and/or
our own deadened senses. The Five-D’s of
spiritual destruction, as I call them.
Truth and honesty are not limited to only our behaviors. The more suppressed or in denial we are, the
more difficult the task of discovering what makes us tick. Learning to be true to ourselves is an
essential ingredient to the process of self discovery, too. Why even bother trying to figure yourself
out, otherwise? *Thank
goodness our artistic sides are there to lend us the hand of a clue or two from
which we can gather the same set of information from.
*From page 26
The
Birth of Rhythm
There is a good reason why I have included my own art
forms of poetry and graphics in this book.
Because they are reflective pieces of my soul, reading them will make it
easier for you to pick out what the forces were that compelled me to react the
way I have throughout my life. My own cause and effect, so to speak. Getting to know me is a big part of that
understanding. Handing them over to you
to scrutinize and interpret the correlations between my own four sides will
have an added value as a source of practice.
Note the dates. By the time
you’re done reading the last page of this book, you will know me as intimately
as my family does and will have seen my own evolution as portrayed in my own
works of self-expression. Discovering
yourself in the same way is the goal.